Diwali,again!

So, here it is Diwali again.
Luck times,but Akshay didn't gain.
He lost it all-the tearful rain!
He felt nothing but pain.

Diwali morning began in fain,
Not for long,mom was in pain.
Her heart of gold was in bane,
Every decoration was now, in vain.

Joy turned depression- a dark lane.
Akshay never dreamed of this bane.
The whole family forgot all the fain.
He was the one to blame with this disdain.
But he deceived everyone with his sane.

The horrible scenario-full of strain,
Minds went numb,they felt no pain.
The one was there,but in vain.
He was helpless but not insane.

He looked forward to the holidays and the train,
But never knew ,the passenger was in a plane.
To heaven she went tied with chain,
She was never coming back ,Akshay cried in vain.

The festival of colourful lights was now plain ,
Darkness overpowered every heart,again.
He was walking the path of rain.
The soul was seen every moment form the sad pane.

Family greetings went in vain,
He only felt Bruno's mane,
Smile never knocked the door again.
Ugly Diwali, again and again.

The Angel

This Diwali is not just another day
Its a festival of lights.In a way
It brings joy to all,but not to me,
I can only think about how things can be
I miss a human being the most this day.

He is the origin of one's growth
He is the most promising oath
To his child, he will bestow upon
Everything he possessed,until dawn,
He left us all and now in the sky
He's found ,burning bright high.

Just a memory brings tears to my eyes,
I could not even bid goodbyes.
He was angry wid me before he closed his eyes
I feel guilty in each of my sighs.

I wish i could hug him,he gulped air
For the last time,I could only dare
to bring him back,he is hsitory now.
And there is only one question in my mind,HOW?
How will I move on without his hand over my head,
But I have to, for myself and my family, thread by thread.

Evry Diwali night I sat besdie him in Worships
Now there is no one there,and my heart dips
Lower than hell can be
I know he wishes the best for me.

I will not let him down
I wil be the most succesful in town.
I will follow my heart and thats the art
Of living, to leave this all behind
And share happiness thats in the mind.

This is how I feel
Salty is my every meal
A father he was who loved me
Without him the world can never be
The same again,He is always with me
In my heart.No inspiration can help me
I stand alone in this family tree.

Can someone come and fix me?
May be an angel in my destiny
She could be my jinni.
Even without anyone, life goes on
And thats how I move on.

SIR IS GOD

It was a feeling inexplicable
Now my heart was palpable.
I could see her, it felt so right
Everything else around me was so white.

She was talking to the teacher,
I could not get my eyes off her
It was a scene so beautiful
Something happened and my mind was full
Of thoughts,Am I in love?
In the sky, it was a dove
Which flew home with me,
I don't know what she thinks about me.

Everyday I talked to her,I was her friend
Not even my friends knew I was a fiend.
I was all mad about her
I couldn't get over her.

We managed a date that Saturday
I was shy and had nothing else to say.
I proposed to her on one knee
There was only joy I could see.

I wanted the clocks to stop ticking
I wish I could stay with her,forever
"Like this",is what everyone is singing.
It was unbelievable,I had a love fever.

She had captured my mind completely
I forgot the way to the barber
I just wanted to dance with her.
I just wanna stay around her neatly.

I never missed an opportunity
To admire her everyday ,so witty.
It was so cool talking to her
I just loved to do "hun,ha"
Nothing from her mouth was blah.

I loved her voice and the class
She carried with herself,a lass.
She was pretty and smart
She indeed was a work of art.

I sought her after an year
I worked hard,just to be near.
She is my most prized possession,
Without her I could never be
What I am today,she is my obsession.

As they say this happens only once
I want her to stay,every ounce
In my body wants her to be around
Because with her love I've found.

I promise I will be with her always
Not as a beau then as a friend,says
SIR,"you are great".I will accompany her
Anywhere and everywhere,SIR
Thank you for bringing her.

A Wednesday

It was A Wednesday
I was jolly to have fun this way.
We (6th std kids) were pulling a pitchroller.
I wanted to be a great cricket bowler.

Well!my dreams were put on hold,
When I was at the back,not so bold.
My hand slipped and next was darkness.
I could hear some sighs and no harshness.

Day was becoming night,slowly.
My eyes were falling shut,slowly.
I could see myself lying on the bed.
The dispensary was full.Am I dead?

I could see white nuns everywhere.
It was an excruciating pain in the air.
My intestines were bleeding.
I could hear some peers pleading.

Half of my abdomen was covered with bandage.
A white Maruti 800 took me from boundage.
My mind was blank unless I met my mother.
The pain was undying,I restlessly laid on the stretcher.

i reached out to hold my mom's hand
She consoled me,i was not on no man's land.
I was carried by an ambulance to the city hospital.
My PTI and my mom accompanied me to the hospital.

I was told I may have a damaged spleen.
Against the wall,I could see my mom lean.
I was moaning in pain with my stomach full of blood.
i had an apple and I felt a flood.

The X-ray was unbelievable,no bones broken.
Ultra sound produced a shocking result,the doctors awakened.
After complete 11 hours of internal bleeding,
I was operated,the last thing I know that I was singing.

With the words of my college anthem,and
I closed my eyes,there was something in my hand.
For a long time i could see only darkness
Light never came in my life.Death's harshness.

The Hardest Part

I walk alone in this decent world
I am just a unique man in the herd.
I have always felt like this,always
I sigh in each one of my days.

We step in and step out alone.
I don't know where I have to go
Now the aim is vague
Now the efforts are all in vain.

In the rains now, I love walking
Coz no one knows that actually I am crying
Tears just get washed away
I walk miles from home everyday.

I look up at the sky and I believe
I am talking to God,"make me believe,
Will I be able to meet the leavers
Is my destiny ,my healers?"

When the city sleeps,I roam
Towards the end,I go away from home
I think about the past,living in my mind
I just wanna walk ahead leaving all this behind.

A mind is calm when you don't think about your kin
The moment they appear in front of you,its like a sin
The mind gets all panic and loses control
But the introvert leaves all and on the roll
He leaves once and forever
Never turning back,he is thin air.

I sacrificed my life ,passion and avocation
All for myself,I went looking for gratifaction
I was searching for peace,I travelled
A million places,I lived as a commoner
I went to worst situations,a former gooner
I did things never done before and finally I stopped.

I had aged with not a weak heart
But with weak bones and white hair
I had reached my destiny
Now I am a small wordly part.

Sudden Death

Eyes-blinked,
ball ricochetted.

Penalty missed,
Dreams shattered.

Miserable sky,
Tears in the eye.

Journey over,
Face cover.

Nation lost,
Defeat-hated most.

Hearts broken,
Heads shaken.

Stunned silence,
Without violence.

Impossible,
I am possible.

World ends,
Heart fails.

Tongue swallowed,
Life ended.

Sudden death,
Unfair earth.

Mother!!!

Walking down the miserable road,
With tears in her eyes load.
She was blinded with the golden memories,
Only her mother visible with happy cherries.

Being a mother herself,
She struggled to calm herself.
She left home to go back home,
To ignite her mother's bones.

Sitting at the station
With her man's shoulder to cry on.
Waiting for the angel of destiny,
She went nostalgic in a jiffy.

From the moving window,she saw
A whole family toiling,with every kin,now!
They were unified and not separated.
Unlike Sheila,who felt like an infant,isolated!

Sheila had two reasons to live on,
Though she was the reason herself,until dawn.
Cardiac arrest didn't do justice.
Took away a soul,a woman sacrificed.

She loved Sheila more than GOD
But what can anyone do?
Nothing helps,words,tears not even food!
Everything now,seems very odd!

The food doesn't taste the same.
The wind doesn't feel the same.
The people don't look the same.
The eyes don't see the same.

Everything's changed,everythind's different.
The childhood memories were just for a moment.
People passing by with looks full of sympathy
Didn't feel good at all,what a pity!

May be the religious customs didn't help.
May be the voodoos couldn't be felt.
Death is inevitable believe it or not.
But still,valiantly,the heart of love fought!!!